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Tuesday, December 30, 2008 @ 11:42 PM
I survived the SIM-RMIT GAMESHOW!!!!
Ok, actually I was REALLY dreading the day of orientation because I'm naturally an introvert so I don't really go for this kind of social events or whatever you want to classify this under but I still went anyway. Reached at 8.30 but the whole thing only started at 9.30 due to delays and whatnot for everyone to settle down. Listened to some talks and after that is ice breaking games and getting to know my OG better. And can u believe it? 2 of the peeps in my OG resembles 2 of my friends REALLY WELL. It's like 99.99% similar in terms of facial features, body shape etc etc. Kion looks like MAX. I thought that he's really max because everything is the same! except for the hair colour. Xue ling looked alot like michelle and I actually thought michelle changed school haha. Played alot of funny games during icebreaking and I remained abit low profile as usual haha, can't change my introverted nature la. Unfortunately due to my carelessness I made a mistake in one of the games and I got to do a forfeit with the rest of the people who also made mistakes. We had to spell out the name of our OG. Oh yah, forgot to say that but my OG name is OISHII!! It stands for delicious in Japanese and I forgot who thought of it haha. Lunch was next then everyone went for the briefing of the games that we are going to play. 10 stations in total and I was really afraid of all those touchy feely games and was praying that there will be none of that. Got horrified to see water bombs being prepared too. But nevertheless, we had no choice HAHA. I'm lazy to blog about all the 10 games but the highlight was that during one of the games, I have to eat a banana that's been molested by everyone in the OG because we have to transfer the banana using only our limbs, and the banana was like mushy and really soft and looked really disgusting. Luckily I didn't throw up haha. Talentime was the last segment of the day and because we had to act out a britney spears song, it was kinda given that a guy should be playing britney. Was very very afraid that I will kena britney because I totally cannot do it! It's just NOT me haha. Luckily Kion was the lucky guy who kena and everyone had fun. To sum it up, I had REALLY GOOD FUN in the end despite my fears and made really nice friends in my OG too. OISHII!!!!! I just want to thank samantha, esther, xueling, jiaqi, mavis, sermin, josephine, kokliong, irvin, yonghui, kion, zhi cao and joanna for making this day so FUUUUUUUN! Can't wait to see you guys in schoooooooooool! Speaking of school, I'm totally like not prepared to go to school la. Haven even bought any books or printed any notes. OMG I'm like super unprepared for School!. Gotta buck up. It's going to be like that for 3 years haha. I'll do a new years post when the day is over after I come back from DTE due to countdown and I really hope I can see fireworks! I'll try to support GLENN and FRIENDS for the gig at braddel too, hopefully I can rush down in time! SEE YA! IN 2009! |
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Wednesday, December 24, 2008 @ 10:26 PM
Merry Xmas Everyone! HAha, I bet I'm wishing the 4 spaces of this computer screen since no one reads this blog anyway. But that's not the main point, since I just want to pen down my thoughts haha.
Anyway, this year is totally weird for me ok? like I totally don't have the mood to celebrate. Maybe cause I'm still bogged down by my emotional baggage, or simply because I really dun have the mood haha, what made things worse was that it rained the entire day for xmas eve. what a dampener haha. But things are still fun though. Went shopping at Marina Square and saw Joanne Peh! coincidentally that same night she got raped on TV la, but she looked more refined in real life then on TV. Went to chill at ECP after that. It was raining even more happily there, got no choice but to go upstairs and play pool. I'm glad my pool skills didn't deprove! or maybe all the way it was just bad la haha Earlier on went to service. The drama this year wasn't that bad, but I think previous years' are better. Didn't really get to celebrate xmas with the cellies cause everyone went for different services. Allright, I"m just gonna slack and head down to airport later for dinner with the animal farm. |
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Monday, December 22, 2008 @ 8:52 PM
Caught this show. Always wanted to watch it. BUT, somehow it doesn't really live up to my expectations. HOWEVER, there was lots of porn in there. Imagine watching a public porn movie with strangers. There's even shit involved. *pukes* Today marks the end of my 6 month holiday stint at Tuas chalet. Should I be happy? Or should I be sad? hmmm....Ok, no emo stuff today. I can still remember the day where I really felt lost. REALLY LOST, but not those kind of lost in the streets or something, even though I do have a degree for getting lost in the public, but it's where I totally have no idea what to do with my life at that point. You know what I mean? But it ain't anyone's fault but myself, who ask me so kay kiang never make back up plan haha. I guess I'm those kind that just chiong and consider the consequences later. What happened was that upon ORDing from army, I wanted to study music in Lasalle, even though the prospects of making it big in Singapore is as tiny as a grain of sand, but it's my passion and I want my life to revolve around it. BUT sadly, due to poor planning and research, I got my information wrong and I didn't even make a back up plan of registering for a course in SIM as backup. Ended up I was told I had to pay $70k for the school fees and the audition requirements is like 100 times more extensive then I've thought. God doesnt have to close that door for me, I can do it myself haha. And that day was also the day where the deadline for SIM is closed. Double Whammy. But I really want to take sher and GOD for helping me to get this job. At first it was only 2 weeks, then it kept extending by my sincere prayers and the grace of God till today. I think I will treat sher to a meal for her help (I am a GRATEFUL PERSON ONE OK?!) haha. A whole new life awaits for me in SIM come January 2009. I really want to excel there and be the head and not the tail, and not repeat the same mistake of wasting time in Poly. I'M OLD ALREADY. Even suffered from mid=life crisis way before I'm supposed to. I'll blog again soon! |
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@ 7:50 AM
Blah
It's time for another update I think.
This weekend is quite interesting. I really didn't expect that I would be so involved in the xmas cg this week but I'm glad I made it through! Well, what I did was I had to sing carols during the cg as well as having a lead solo, and also to play for 2 songs haha. At first I was not interested and quite unwilling because I'm kinda a shy person and I don't like to be in the limelight, but everything went well in the end. Was pondering whether to go for service after that but decided to stay back to gobble up the good food cooked by some of the peeps. The food was really nice and I'm surprised haha, and also appreciative of the people who took the time and effort to make those food, it must have been quite a lot of hard work, though I didn't eat alot. Sorry! Slacked around and played saboteur and a new game I learnt citadel. Everyone was raving about how fun the game is and I decided to give it a try and it was truly an amusing game haha. Time flew during that period and before I knew it, it was time to go home. Sometimes I really wish that time can just stop there because these are times that I really cherish, the time where I can just relax and bond with friends and just have a good time. But reality bites and sadly, life has to go on and I hate it when that happens haha. I don't know why I'm feeling emo all of a sudden, it could be that I'm getting older and it seems like my life is going to come to a standstill, where everything is going to be mundane and boring and there's nothing to look forward to. I just feel that life could be so much more. I want to travel around the world, meet different kinds of people and just absorb every fibre that this planet has to offer. Ok, I dunno what to blog already. |
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Thursday, December 18, 2008 @ 8:29 PM
Right now it's my lunch break so here I am blogging again.
There's so much thoughts that I wanna pen down here but then again, I'll probably be pressing the backspace button way more then I press my toilet flush button =\ 2 MORE DAYS to END OF WORK!!!! I dunno if I should celebrate in joy or wallow in despair. For the joy part I dun have to: 1. Wake up before the sun wakes up at 6.30am! 2. Squeeze with inconsiderate 'foreign talent' in the train 3. Plan what to do after work everyday. 4. Eat sometimes crappy sometimes delicious catered food 5. Do boring mundane jobs on repeat mode! 6. Drink coffee everyday to keep my eyelids from shutting down For the despair part: 1. No more delicious cash in my account anymore 2. Become more free (I want to be busy) 3. Settle my own lunch everyday! 4. STUDY 5. PROJECTS 6. EXAMS 7. TESTS School is going to start and I'm kinda apprehensive yet excited for it. I wonder what kind of student life will I be having. What kind of people will I meet there. What kind of politics will there be. This is kinda my last shot at studying life so I want to make it the best that I can! Orientation day is coming and I'm still scared! I'm afraid of standing out in the limelight. I'm afraid of being put around strangers, just makes me want to run away =X. God help! Xmas is coming and everyone is busy buying presents for their loved ones. And what am I doing here in the office haha. I don't really have the habit of buying presents for people or during festivities so it kinda feels weird. I really hope the year end gig will be successful. I will be there to support and hopefully simon cowell will hear the angelic noise created and fly straight down to see! wahahahah |
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Thursday, December 11, 2008 @ 7:47 AM
I've never felt so nervous in school before.
Not even during the orientation in TP. I guess I'm still the introverted FREAK that resides within me. Signed up for orientation today too. GOSH what am I doing. I'm going to melt from shyness on that day. Jamming was not bad, sang for Vertigo and Heaven, both songs that require high tenor notes. WHy do I feel like my life's in a mid-life crisis? is it caused by this particular someone? I looked at the leaf falling down from the tree and wondered if that's my fate too. Hanging on the tree which represents my hope and my comfort zone, and falling off on it, landing on the cold rough concrete slab, with no hope of getting back to the tree. I wanted to ask the leaf if it's allright, does it feel pain? does it feel sadness? when it's colour fades, does all the unhappy memories fade together too? Sometimes, being a dog or a pet is much better than being a human I feel. cause all you need to worry is whether u have food for the day. You don't need anything else. I just have to wait for things to settle in. |
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008 @ 7:13 PM
Caught Bolt @ Cathay.
Lazy to post up the movie poster but u can just head over to GV to check it out. Storyline is AWESOME! I'm not sure if I can even compare it to Pixar but it's definitely worth the money! Wanted to catch the 3D version but guess what? tickets got sold out for the whole day. Argh...really wanted to wear the 3D glasses! Chilled at Macdonald's thereafter for sundae...generous serving of chocolate syrup! Xmas is coming and I am like sooooo booked during that week, with outings and such. Cya! |
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Monday, December 8, 2008 @ 3:43 PM
GASTRIC
OK, I seriously need to eat something already. Is something wrong with me? I haven't eaten anything since the previous day's breakfast. Not sure why too, but just doesn't have that feeling of being hungry or whatso. I guess I'm getting old, no need to eat so much to grow.
ANYWAY, if you're wondering what the heck am I blogging at this ungodly hour of 7.44am, first time ever in my blogging history, it's because my good friend GASTRIC have come to visit me for an early christmas gathering. I WOKE up at 6.30am, WASHED UP at 6.40am, GOT DRESSED by 6.45am, STYLED MY HAIR at 6.50am, LEFT THE HOUSE at 7am, just to have this crap happen. Actually I already woke up with the queasy feeling in my stomach, but it happened many multiple times before that I felt it's just one of those morning pains that will go away once I'm on the way outside. BUT today my stomach really PMS-ed to me, I could not bear the pain once I've reached Kallang MRT and I have to detour back to Aljunied. There goes my wages for the day. And probably even more if I decided to go see the doctor. Well, at least there's KTV tommorow. |
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@ 8:48 AM
EMOFK
Detriot Metal City, the current manga that I'm loving. Ultra-vulgar, ultra-funny, ultra-sick, ultra-degrading etc,,,,,,,,,, I think life is making a joke out of me. Or rather, my mind is screwing me up. If God is willing to give me a chance to drill open my skull and reboot it, I would do it in a HEARTBEAT.
They say time heals everything. I really hope that time is faithful to that statement. I wish I could be emotionless, totally void of any emotions that a human being would have. You can say I'm emo. But all I'm asking for is just to be happy. But where exactly is that happiness? How do you actually grasp it? To some, happiness is having a great family, to others, it's just the grateful feeling of having a shelter, to others, it's having someone you love. So which is my happines? It's not something that can be bought like a car, or results which you can improve on by just studying. I guess I really have to wait for this SHITTY feeling to go away from me. Life' aint perfect for everyone, but there are some people's life which I believe is perfect. Perfect situations, perfect environement, perfect opportunities. It's really irritating when something bothers you and you can't do anything to change it. Ok, enough of this emo shit. Moving on to brighter things, school is starting and I hope that by then, this crappy feeling that I'm suffering from now will dissapear, just like before this whole shit started. To all who reads this, I'm SORRY if I've spoilt your day. Just that I need a place to vent my frustrations, and I don't want to bother anyone. No one reads this emo crap anyway. BUT to those who does care, A BIG THANK YOU FOR MAKING A DIFFERENCE IN MY LIFE =D |
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Monday, December 1, 2008 @ 6:09 AM
March 9
I'm so in love with this song right now. It's translated as March 9 in Japanese and there's meaning in it. March 9 is the date where majority of schools held their graduation ceremony for graduating students. I find it really sad when times of departure happen, where you know you have to move on to a new phase of life and leave all the wonderful memories behind, the nostalgia just moves you. What makes this song even more meaningful is that it's used for a Jdrama called 1 litres of tears, it's probably one of the most touching and depressing drama I've ever seen. The story is about a girl who's diagnosed with a degenerative diseases which will make the person slowly lose control and mobility of his/her body, but it doesn't affect the mind, therefore it's very hard to endure the pain of having to know you're going to die. This girl, after learning of this disease that she had, displayed a touching attitude of not giving up on her life, but instead living her life to the fullest. It's taken from a true story of a girl who contracted the disease at the age of 15 and died at the age of 25. At the advice of her doctor she began to keep a daily diary of her life, depicting the happy and sad things that happen. When she died, the book is published in memory of her. She lived her life to the fullest and had no regrets. It was sad to die that way but I find it very courageous. Comparing her to the kind of lives that most of us have, disease-free, whose problems probably consists of only our exams, what clothes to buy, which restaurant to celebrate our friend's birthday in, all these just seems so minute compared to the struggles people like Aya (the girl in the show and also the real name of the girl) I know that graduation and this disease probably have no relation but the thing that links these two together is the music. Just a touching and heart-warming melody unites people from different languages together, where they understand the same language. Just watching that video makes me want to be there to soak in that nostalgic moment. Which even bolsters my ambition to become a musician, I want to write music like that, and perform for people who will probably be blessed just hearing it, even if it comes from someone whom they have not met before or know. |